Lee Tracy |
100 TEARS, PART 1 2000
100 things that made me cry (while living in the last century) Someone stole my hat right off of my head We put stella to sleep My aunt died of cancer My grandmother suffered from Lou Gehrig's My grandpa stopped talking to his son A friend changed after taking pcp After reading silent spring Sometimes when I paint Kids were smashing pollywogs with rocks I fell in a puddle and ruined my coat When i wanted god to hear me Feeling misunderstood I discovered that i wasn't in love Patty's brother was killed in Vietnam Judy Garland died Ii fell in a well and no one believed me I was down to 36 cents I had to remove the valentines from my window My dead cat, chow chow, was tossed in the trash I wanted my mother I rented a room in a stranger's house Riding Greyhound bus from my dad's to my mom's I did not get the job My grandmother died after doctors said that she was fine Wanting my life to be different Joel was late getting home I had a spider on my neck Joel said that he would never leave me The goodness and deeds of others When i saw the Dalai Lama No one took my side I was told that i would be given all that i want Watching movies about the Holocaust I was ignored in a room full of people Religion divided our family i got gum in my hair My father quit his career Audubon's descriptions of flocks of birds flying I thought too much of the past and the future The minutemen passing by our home I devoted myself to a vision I didn't have Christmas Friends were not friendly anymore A gutted deer hung from the tree How beautiful the Assabet River was Watching Walden Pond change when the police came to check things out I felt love I held my little sister as if she was mine I almost got hit by a speeding truck I was screaming and no one came A teacher made fun of my spelling Listening to the piano I saw a fire start The Staffordshire dogs did not come to life Standing on Prospect and Cushing When things were not what I thought I got lost on the way home The gossip was about me I was held up at gunpoint John Kennedy Jr. died The Gulf war Rejections I let a bird free Match factories in India They thought i was faking before going to the hospital I had two different socks on for my school photos I was painting the loft ceiling by myself I missed a funeral I saw how big elephant herds once were We moved away My parents fought I was alone They didn't want to see me I was embarrassed After i was brave Graduating didn't feel like anything Patty hearst was kidnapped Seals dead on the beach I saw whales swimming Ghost nets got bigger The story of Little Women The oil spill The spray trucks carried DDT Famine Someone stopped to help us Learning of others' pain No money Litter in the streets When I arrived in Vienna Staying in Agatha Christie's room on the cataract Crossing through Checkpoint Charlie Those that have little and share My grandmother went behind the iron curtain My brother went through a glass window When old dishes break The beauty of ruth ealy's garden A European thanked me for america's help The Michigan sunset after my wedding John died of aids 100 TEARS, PART 3 Disturbing traits of humanity (that must now pass through us) greed selfishness hoarding egotism conceit condescension jealousy dishonesty hypocrisy endangerment corruption gossip pettiness malice fraud usury crime stealing injustice contempt harassment demoralization humiliation unfairness intimidation coercion violence abuse victimization perversion poverty famine racism sexism prejudice slavery degradation elitism oppression hatred evil genocide murder terrorism weapons persecution torture materialism cruelty plundering bribery pollution illiteracy tyranny toxins dictatorship self-righteousness domination strife exploitation rigidity intolerance usurpation barbarism rage animosity blackmail smog nepotism rape hubris belligerence deception wastefulness combativeness defilement desecration recklessness alienation pretension falsification insincerity extinction bigotry extremism colonialism apartheid revenge segregation embezzlement thoughtlessness authoritarianism hostility covetousness nsensitivity negativity vindictiveness spite misuse unmercifulness 100 TEARS, PART 3, TEARS OF JOY (100 thoughts to keep on going) HOPE NEGATIVE to POSITIVE brain scan lightboxes, 5x5 Prepare for the experience that will deconstruct your beliefs. The wish that you were granted is coming true now. It is always all about you. This wound is part of the cosmic order. Not everyone will be happy with what you do. You are stepping out of your shoes with each step. Look for the tulips in rude people's eyes. It is only a rocky cliff with monsters on it. Quick, walk down the first plank that you see. Each thought gets a new wrinkle. Should I just trust myself. I am so organized that I am not. It is time to rest. There are two of everyone. Just playing, not dead. Beethoven sends his love and Blake enjoyed meeting you. Not true, too bad, nothing, so what. Silence but for the clouds moving across the sky. You only think that you want to live down a 10 min driveway. Your teeth are still here and there was no cliff. Dissolve, become dissolve, become, dissolve become dissolve, become dissolve. Everyone thinks that you are nuts. A dream that does not end. All of you are in shock, you the most. You are a wild animal running in dirt soon to be free. Throw stuff out there. Because we are creative, we will have lots of fun. You are not alone. Is it starting to make sense? It is all so amazing. Do not let too many people in here--I will tell you who. I really love your art. We know that you were hurt, it is why we are here. Make promises and when others break them. Be quiet in the world now. 4x4 I believe in you, you believe in me Then there was a seal placed upon my heart. We will watch over you. Hold some words back. It is true, mistakes are made. Let light in here There is something that I need to tell you. God's stars rest around my head. A paradise here on earth. I understood the language coming from the sea. This Is The Last Time I Am Going To Cook You All Dinner 101 dinner plates I have given all that I can give. You did not see the slice of sky. One day your spoon became a shovel. My china will never match. You make fun of my wrinkled napkins. Your bite became aggressive. My presentation is always dignified. You don't notice the uniqueness. You only see your reflection in the silver. It bothers you that there is only one fork. You miss the fine details. You ignore what is set before you. How odd that you go away complaining. You gobble up delicacies like fast food . My freedom annoys you. You have it all backwards and in reverse. You were only trying to help yourself. The things that come out of your mouth are shocking. You had a personal goal that involved me. Our motives are very different. I have what it takes. Thank you. No thank you. I am fed up, finished, and through. I have always set a place for you. The entree is not for sale. Everyone is welcome to an extra helping. I am a refreshment. It was all my pleasure. Your eyes are the size of saucers. You must always be the centerpiece. I worked a lifetime on the menu. I didn't fulfill your expectations. The fine china is now hidden. You wanted so much. I can not make something up. I didn’t want to lose my course. I showed you beautiful patterns and textures. I needed to preserve my integrity. All I have is inside me. I freely share myself with you. You have overlooked all that I can give. Realizations take time to arrive. I must save myself. My service was amazing. Some things must be avoided. You hatched something up while I was cooking for an army. You tried to rearrange my table. I owe you nothing. Your expectations are too much. You said you tried to help me. You only helped yourself. I never asked for help. I made myself vulnerable, sometimes fragile. Each glass has the same amount. Your tone had grit to it. I pray all the time. Please order take-out next time. Well done! I am going to leave now I'm going to disappear. I took it for awhile, I overlooked it. I just don't need to be around. I remained refined. This is not a stain. You will miss all that was here. Time washes things away. The event is now fading. I didn't take what you offered. Where does it leave me? You are not satisfied with your dish. I was as kind as I could be without being spat upon. You became sloppy. We all need daily care. I couldn't breath, I was choking. My menu is complete. I tried the impossible. I tried to please us both. We have very different tastes. Your remarks had a sour flavor. I don't ever want to be bitter. I lost my privacy, I lost the time to recover. So sorry that it has come to this. Patience allows things to rise and become. I presented you with a feast that was rare. My recipes overflow with flavors. Please don't make a mess here. Your mouth is full. I like to focus on everyone’s sweetness. I have taken on quite a bit. The party got out of control. You have forgotten how to slow down and enjoy. I provided you with a gem. There were rations, but everyone ate. You missed the spread placed before you. The banquet is for everyone. You left your picnic in the rain. The table cloth was pulled away quickly. The reception was off. I treated myself with respect. Your indulgence got the best of you. You talk to consume your own words. I Just Woke Up 31 Pillows Wake up wake up See it as everlasting All that matters is here Prepare for silence Only know what you know Pick up where you left off Secretly happy Your road is the highway Float over Now is always Next mountain please This is not a speed ramp World to you Thin wall ahead Light through eyelids Just you Reinvent here The point is behind you Go to the place you always go There is here Here is where you are Fundamental Hear your thoughts Thoughts travel at night You are epic Interpret code Choose metaphysical Listen to movement You are a creative force Genesis of being This is it Forthcoming Reading Tea Leaves, Peace of Mind, Beating Drum, Paper Prayers, Waterworks, My Fans, Gloved, Mica Might, Feather Bed... | PAINTING 1991-1995 1996-2000 2001-2005 2006-2010 2011-2014 MINI-SERIES 1990 Peppers, Seeds, and Rotting Vegetables 1996 What I painted when I could not paint 2005 For the Birds 2007 Butterflies are free 2011 The Year The Permafrost Softened WORKS ON PAPER 1988-1989 Chairs 1989-1990 Umbrellas 1991-1998 1997 The Chase 1998 Dismantled Sketchbooks 1999 Ragdale Series 2000-2004 Collage Art 2002 Charcoal 2000-2004 Figure Drawing 2000-2005 Project Art 2000 Spinning Plates 2002 Fan Collages 2001 Screaming In Places Where I Can't Be heard 2004 Wonderscapes 2005-2006 The Story of the Universe 2008 Buddha Was Here 2009 Life On Hold (NFS) 2010-2016 The Demandments (NFS) MIXED MEDIUM 1995-1998 Sectioned panels 1997-1998 White Paintings and Furry Work 1998 Red Dot Series 2001-2009 Wax, Wire, Gold, Globe, and Glass 2001 How Things Pile Up 2002 Retablos, oil on metal OBJECT ART 2002-present Project Items Historic-present Fane Items 1550-1560 Ancestral Figure Drawings INSTALLATION 2002-2016 Paradise 2006 Negative to Positive 2007-present Four walls* 2008 Found 2010-present Teacups for Reading Tea Leaves 2011-present Waterworks* 2000-present My Crates PERFORMATIVE 2004 White Sands 2006 Blue Clouds LIBRARY OF BOOKS 2000-present Painting Inventory Book of Days Whitewash The Ragdale Book Brain Book Ransom Magazine Box of Tears Pocket Full of Cries Europe Mongolia Flower Book Retablos: How I Got From Here to Here The Fane Pamphlet Scroll of Influence The Story of Red Trees Red Trees History Red Trees Chronicle Red Trees Prayerbook Red Trees Kakemono Book of Leaves Elemental Communion Found: Journals from the future Symbol Book Books of Sense Organ Origin The Wedding Program The Wedding Book I Must Go Ladder Book* Book of Stairs* The Studio Visit Playbill* Flower Book 2* ...continued STUDIO PRACTICE Studio 1: Dayton and Blackhawk Studio 2: Hubbard and House Project scouting and on location Works in progress Exhibits, happenings, homes Studio clippings and announcements Artist WORLD RIVERS PROJECT overview World Rivers: Curtain World Rivers: Participants World Rivers: Rivers World Rivers: Cloth Visit the River Log TEXT ARCHIVE Artwork Installation Books * documentation is forthcoming This archive is a creative history spanning two decades. The documentation is comprised of many technological formats ranging from slides, 4x5s, photographs, and straddles the introduction of digital formatting of the time. The goal was to preserve images, whether high or low resolution. |
Lee Tracy |